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My toes are cold.

It seems all I've been doing is working on my portfolio as of late.

But I am experimenting more with photoshop and my wonderful new copic markers which are the most fan-friggin-tastic thing ever manufactured. They are like my most favorite things next to my faber castells.

Yeah.

I know I don't have any of my 2D stuff and my own excuse is my own lazyness. I don't have a scanner so I have to photograph everything including all my poster size crap which sucks cause I loose a lot of detail in that process. But I think once this semester is done and overwith I'll get my ass back in gear and post some of my better stuff.

In the mean time, I've been working on a CG portrait off and on for the past couple days while I've been sick. So once I wrap that up, probably some time tommorrow, I'll post it.

Until later days.

My, my, my it certainly has been a long time.

I had planned to write this beautiful three paragraph journal about my what's been going on in my life but let me summarize things like this:

1) Knee completely healed but for some odd reason it can predict the weather. i.e. thunderstorm= distinct knee pain 2days in advance

2) Found out that for years I've really been suffering from panic attacks and am not weak

3) Have rediscovered how much I hate misquitos

4) Have YET to get my ass in gear and update here.

5) Am a red head again.( Well I dyed it red after the goofy gal I had at the hair salon turned it the color of orange juice. )

Well schools been over with and Ive recently been in recovery from knee surgery. This was a long process to get through starting from a year ago this past October. Between dealing with an a-hole doctor and finally finding one that knew what was wrong with my bloody knee did I finally find out that I tore my minesucs on the left side of my left knee. He was actually surprised I went a year without causing irreprecable damage. Still, it's a pain in the ass to walk around with this immobilizer on .This would explain my lack of updates and such.

I considered scipping it at first but because I have a horrible phobia of all things doctors, needles and dentists so it took a lot just to make it to the hospital that day and get an iv without loosin it.
*shudders* it didn't hurt, the surgery that is but i got a laugh when before they knocked me out the nurse bent over to tell me her name and that everything was going to be ok when she noticed quote "i [had] a really nice complexion" to which i replied a very sluggish 'thank you". Even though it was realitively quick and painless, i couldn't leave for a couple of hourse because i was ill from the anestisia (sp?) they kept asking my mom if i was normally that pail or was i really that ill lolz.

i won't be able to go back to my normal job of working in the paint dept but to keep some cash coming in i started helping out in the phone room. I couldn't stand hopping around the house much longer.

Hopefully Ill be to upload some more pictures a little later in the month, or maybe sooner it all depends.

long time no post i know but i just wanted to get rid of my other journal again.

not much else going on besides loosing my focus on my studies, procrastinating horribly and rushing any and all homework that I might have. I m writing this now when i should be working on an essay. i guess i'm just trying to into the mood of writing. I feel so creatively dry and barren lately. it's like im running around in a hamster wheel. between work and school and the small break i get from on thursdays my brain just feels so... unfocused.

anywho, i messed up my knee a couple of weeks ago. two weeks before my birthday my knee decides to go out and i had to miss more school and i got to hop around work like a freakin jack rabbit for the good part of a weekend. it certainly isn't the first time its happened but this is one of the worst times so i had to get xrays and then a MRI to check to the soft tissue.

I haven't had much of a chance to enjoy any reading or any type of fruitful artwork besides that of which i'm doing in school. i'm running into walls lately and im counting done the days until this semester is over.

i want to take my ipod and use it to remove my brain through my nose like the egyptians did to their mummies.

yeah.